Saturday, November 1, 2014


IN the early morning hours of Halloween day in 1993, River Phoenix died outside the Viper Room on Sunset Blvd.

He had ingested a fatal combination of alcohol, marijuana, cold medicine, a component of speed, heroin and valium. He was 23 years old.

His Dionysian indulgence caused him to collapse, convulse and then suffer cardiac arrest within a matter of moments. 

He was dead when he arrived at Cedars Sinai Hospital only some 45 minutes after taking his heroin.

He was one of the most beautiful people that the world has ever known, an Adonis of our time, an amazing actor and musician, whose films will forever immortalize his memory. 

One of his last roles was as a gay, drug-addict, prostitute in My Own Private Idaho, and it is said that his work on this film had such a profound effect on his soul that he was never again free from it.

He had not only turned to the use of heavy drugs, which he had before scorned, but he is also rumored to have taken up homosexuality, which he did not deny. 

Indeed the sensitivity and depth that he brought to the tortured prostitute, searching for love, is an intimation of the inner beauty and darkness of understanding that River Phoenix possessed. 

He had only just been chosen to play the role of the poet Arthur Rimbaud, another Saint of Antinous.

For his achievements in the cinema, for the abandonment of letting the dark god take over his life, and for the sorrowful tragedy of his death, which he embraced fully, almost prophetically, we name the spirit of River Phoenix among the blessed Saints of Antinous, because he was a living Dionysus, and because his final day on earth was the day that the Holy City of Antinoopolis was founded. 

It is fitting that such a beautiful creature as St. River Phoenix is the first Saint of the Ecclesiastical Year.

Friday, October 31, 2014


ON this Sacred Night, we celebrate the return of Antinous from the underworld ... the Triumph of the Liberator!

Many of us gathered in person and via Skype to celebrate the event at our friend Rick Thompson's house in the Hollywood Hills, a home filled with exquisite art.

We made a very special consecration on this night, which had remained top-secret for so many months, but was finally revealed tonight!

We consecrated this magnificent 19th Century bronze replica (pictured above) of the famous ANTINOUS OSIRIS statue in the Vatican Museums. It is the sort of souvenir which wealthy Victorian travelers brought home from their "Grand Tour" trips to Europe and Egypt.

Rick acquired it several months ago, but it has been literally under wraps until tonight's sacred Foundation Day consecration ceremonies.

Tonight is also the CONCORDIA MOON (Aquarius First Quarter Moon), and it is a great, mysterious sign that such an auspicious New Moon would occur on this Sacred Night. The Concordia Moon represents setting old conflicts aside, renewing bonds with loved ones, and making new friends. 

This is an excellent omen for the coming year of Antinous faith! I ask that the New Moon of Concordia will bless all of us tonight!
This is also the beginning of the New Year of Antinous the God ... 1,884!

During tonight's ceremonies, which drew Skype participants from Brazil, Mexico and Germany as well as the US, we also canonized new SAINTS OF ANTINOUS for the year 2014 ... including 365 BRAZILIAN MARTYR SAINTS ... LGBTIU people who were victims of homophobic violence in recent months in Brazil.

Antinous is with us Again! He is spreading his power with renewed force, after having visited the Underworld to recharge his energy!

I offer my blessing upon all of you everywhere in the world tonight as FLAMEN ANTINOALIS, as the first person to respond to the call he sent out, that the time had come to renew his ancient faith in the modern world. 

That time is happening now and we are all part of it, each and every one of us everywhere in the world.

We are in a state of war against our enemies. They have stepped up their hatred against us many fold ... Not since the Nazis sent us to the concentration camps, or since the Catholic Church burned us at the stake, have we seen so much hatred and violence against us. 

A Gay Genocide is underway! 

Antinous has chosen this moment now to return ... as Liberator. 

At first, years ago, it seemed like a mystery to me ... Why was I called to worship him? ...  Why had no one previous to me attempted to restore his ancient cult?

But now as events have gotten worse and worse (yet better and better) for gay people ... I understand. Because Antinous waited for this moment now to return in spirit to the world.

What I have seen so far of him ... is nothing compared to what will come ... and it brings immense hope for the future. 

As Dark as events in the world may become ... a powerful light is shinning stronger for Gay, Bi, Lesbian and Transgender people everywhere in the world!

Every day, more and more of us come together,

Every day, the fire of Antinous spreads

His name becomes less a strange, unheard of and difficult to pronounce name from Ancient times ... and more a realization that once there was a time when being gay was a sacred state of being, and that there was a god who represented us, and spoke on our behalf to the immortal powers.

Antinous is with us again...his power is growing stronger in our hearts.

Antinous is within all of US!

The Blessing of Antinous is with us all!

The Arisen Antinous has Come Again!

Ave Antinous!

Thursday, October 30, 2014


ON this day we commemorate the founding of the Sacred City of Antinous, the glorious city called ANTINOOPOLIS originally and later Ansena and Antinoé. 

Our Lord Hadrian Augustus, Emperor of Rome, Pontifex Maximus, the New Jupiter, Hercules reborn, consecrated the shore of the Nile where Antinous fell, and solemnly founded the Holy City of Antinoopolis in Egypt in the year 130 AD.

Antinous had risen again from the depths of Tartarus, he had conquered death and returned to the place of the living.

By Victory and Proclamation, Antinous was elevated to godliness, and the ancient religion of Our God was set in motion. The Priesthood of Antinous was ordained, sacred statues and images proliferated, and Temples rose up in every corner of the world, for the glory of Antinous the God.

We exalt in the deification of Antinous, and marvel at his assumption into heaven. 

On this day we concelebrate the Foundation of Antinoopolis by re-founding the sacred city within our hearts, declaring ourselves the New Stones of Antinoopolis. 

With love for Antinous in our hearts, the New Temple of Antinous was founded in 2002, called Ecclesia Antinoi, and the New Priesthood of Antinous initiated.

We recognize the Foundation of Antinoopolis as the first day of the New and Holy Year of Religion of Antinous.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014



ANTINOUS is dead. Hadrian is weeping over his limp body on the banks of the Nile where his beloved perished in late October of the year 130 AD.

While mourners wail in the world of the living, Antinous descends into the Underworld. The modern Religion of Antinous commemorates this descent into the Egyptian Duat on October 29th.

Flamen Antonius Subia says:
Antinous is embraced by Osiris beneath the water of the Holy Nile, and he is given over to Hermes-Anubis and led into the underworld.

He appears before the Lords of the scale of Maat, but his spirit is divine and the scales crumble at his touch.

Hermes-Anubis escorts Antinous into the Hall of the Queen of the Dead, Persephone, and because he is a witness of the Mysteries of Eleusis, he obtains from her the pomegranate of immortality.

The immortal spirit of Antinous does not taste death, and he is given to drink of the fountain that restores memory because he has learned from Orpheus that he is from the Earth but is a Child of the Stars.

Antinous conquers death and returns from darkness. At midnight Antinous the God arises from the Nile and steps onto the shore from which he fell. The spirits of the entourage of Dionysus attend his resurrection and he is reborn as the New Osiris-Dionysus.
In the Religion of Antinous, this is the last day of the Ecclesiastic Year, it is spent in darkness and in solemn devotion.

As Antinous journeys through the underworld, we confront the weakness of being without our god, we reflect on the passage of the year, and on the influence of Antinous upon our lives, and we pray for the triumph of his return. 

At midnight, a pure candle is ignited to symbolize the deification of Antinous Our God. 

Tuesday, October 28, 2014


ON three continents tonight, adherents of Antinous took part via a Skype video call in a candlelight vigil in memory of Brazilian victims of homophobia.

The vigil coincided with the October 28 observance of the Death of Antinous on that date in the year 130 AD.

Worshipers in Brazil, Mexico, the US and Europe took part in the candlelight ceremonies.

At the Hollywood Temple of Antinous, the founder of the modern religion of Antinous, ANTONIUS SUBIAsolemnly read out more than 300 names of Brazilian LGBTIU victims of homophobic murders over the past two years ... and linked them to the tragic death of Antinous.

"Compiling this list has been truly one of the most emotionally devastating things I have ever done for Antinous," he said during the video link-up. "I want to simply just lie down and cry for an hour or two ... so much death, so much suffering and pain and sadness ... so much cruelty in the world."

He added, "As I was preparing the list, I set it aside for a couple of days, and when I came back to it, I was horrified to see that 10 more people had been murdered and needed to be added to the list."

People are dying from homophobic attacks at the rate of one every 36 hours in Brazil alone ... in addition to the countless others elsewhere around the world.

"That means someone has probably died in the time it has taken me to read this list over the past 20 minutes or so," Antonius said. "So our ceremonies tonight are also for that person."

Noting that many of the victims are unidentified, Antonius said, "These ceremonies are important because very many of these young people were given no funeral rites. No one mourned for them, so it is important that we ask tonight for Antinous to bless them and take them into his arms," he told the worshipers joining him via Skype.

"We must do what we can for those who are lost, for the souls of our beloved Gay, Lesbian and Trans who are languishing lost and forgotten by the side of the river Styx in the underworld, trapped between our world and the next, unable to move on," he said.

"We pray that as Antinous passes through the Kingdom of the Dead, that he will gather them together and give them a place of peace and love forever on his Barque of Millions of Years," he said.

"I pray to Antinous to watch over them, now as his divine spirit sinks down into the place of the dead ... and when he returns, that he will bring for hope again, that these deaths will stop," Antonius said. "This is what I wish for."

Taking part from Brazil in the video link-up, journalist and gay educator Deco Ribeiro pointed out that the upsurge in LGBTIU murders has prompted lawmakers to draw up legislation making homophobia a crime.

"The legislation is called the Alexandre Ivo Law, named after a 14-year-old boy who was bludgeoned to death by three youths in 2010. His mother Angelica Ivo has led the lobbying effort to criminalize homophobia in Brazil," Deco said.

Only a few weeks ago, the headline-making murder of JOÃO ANTÔNIO DONATI spawned protest rallies in major Brazilian cities.

Brazil has the largest Antinous faith community in the non-English speaking world, and adherents of Antinous have taken the unprecedented move of proclaiming João the first SAINT OF ANTINOUS in Brazil.

Tonight's solemn candlelight ceremonies ... spanning seven time zones Monday evening (in Hollywood) and Tuesday morning (in Europe) ... concluded with Antonius draping the bust of Antinous at the temple's sacred altar in commemoration of the Death of Antinous.

We believe it was on October 28 in the year 130 AD, near the village of Hir-wer in Egypt, that Antinous fell into the Nile and drowned.

There are those who believe that he was murdered, or that he willingly gave himself over to human sacrifice to prolong the life of his beloved Hadrian, or that his death was the suicidal effect of teenage melodrama, or that is was merely an accident, but there is no way to know, no way to be certain.

Grief-stricken Hadrian only said he "plunged into the Nile" but never elaborated on the circumstances of the death of his beloved.

Antonius says:
We priests of Antinous do not take a definite position and leave the matter as an unknowable mystery. The manner in which Antinous died is not important, only the effect that his death had upon the world has significance.

On this day, we solemnly and silently mourn the Death of Antinous whom Hadrian loved and for whom he wept, and we sorrow for the loss of such great beauty at so young an age.

We pray for the Bithynian boy who died so far from home.

With his death, our religion was set in motion.

We lament and exalt in the grief of Hadrian that was so strong and so powerful that it spread to the whole face of the world, and affects us still today.

We pray also for all those homosexuals who have died in youth as a consequence of repression, we mourn the suicides, and commit them to the soothing arms of Antinous, who was assumed into the Nile for all of us.

It is one of the great ironies of history that, by dying dramatically, a young person who was unremarkable except for his beauty became irrevocably bound with the most powerful man in the world. 

Emperor Hadrian proclaimed Antinous a God. He established a city on the bend of the Nile where the young man died — Antinoopolis. 

He named a constellation in the heavens after Antinous.

And without gentle Antinous at his side, Hadrian became an embittered and broken man. He became capricious and at times cruel. A reign which had been marked by Hellenistic principles of tolerance descended into bloodshed.

It is indeed remarkable how one young man, a commoner with no wealth or political influence, changed the course of history simply by dying. And the thousands of statues sculpted on orders of grieving Hadrian became the iconic image of Classical beauty — the last deity of Ancient Greece and Rome.

Antinous fell into the Nile, beneath the swirling waves, but when his body was pulled from the water ... a God emerged. Antinous is our God, he has accomplished the salvation of all lovers of his beauty. His is our salvation. He is Antinous the Gay God. He is the last pagan God of Classical Rome.

For centuries, he was worshiped in secret by gay men who were afraid to worship him publicly. Men such as Oscar Wilde and Walt Whitman sang his praises. When the Nazis marched into the offices of gay-rights advocate Magnus Hirschfeld in Berlin, they smashed a ceramic wall relief of Antinous which Dr. Hirschfeld had set in a place of reverence over the doorway.

And now, in the 21st Century, the "Most Great and Good God" (as he was known among his followers) is being discovered by a whole new generation of people seeking gay spirituality. 

We dedicate our lives and our souls to fulfilling the Divine Hadrian's command to establish the Religion of Antinous for all who seek gay spirituality. We dedicate our lives and our souls to serving Antinous the Gay God.

Monday, October 27, 2014


IN memory of the tragic death of Antinous on October 28 in the year 130 AD, candlelight vigil ceremonies will be held via Skype Monday night and into early Tuesday.

The ceremonies commemorate the deaths of more than 300 LGBT victims of homophobia in Brazil over the past year.

Participants from Brazil, North America and Europe have already committed themselves to taking part ... and you can too.

Officiating at the ceremonies will be Antonius Subia as head of the Hollywood Temple of Antinous.

"I am going to recite the names of over 300 LGBT victims of homophobic violence who have died in Brazil alone as representing the thousands who have died globally. We do this in memory of the death of Antinous," Antonius said in announcing the candlelight vigil.

"To participate wear black and have a small candle ready to light," he said.

"It will start on Monday 27th October at 11:30 p.m. Sao Paolo time ... 6:30 p.m. Pacific Time," he added.

Because the UK and Europe turned their clocks back one hour this weekend, that means the ceremonies will begin at 1:30 a.m. Tuesday British time, 2:30 a.m. European Time.

To take part, add Antonius as a friend on Skype: Antonius.subia and then notify him via Facebook Messenger by clicking HERE.

At the time of the ceremony, Antonius will message you via Facebook to stand by for the Skype video call.

The same procedure will apply to the annual Foundation Day ceremonies on October 30 when we celebrate the establishment of the religion of Antinous and the Sacred City of Antinoopolis.

You are invited to take part in both of these global events.